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Friday, November 07, 2003

" i hate myself for loving you..".. haha.. the song keeps playing in my head.. wahaha

hmm.. ashley suddenly called me just now.. wanna meet me.. shes coming down to my bus stop frm Ubi..yep.. she better accompany me until i meet jillene at 5...

yeah... haha.. im happy.. tonight.. heehee.. we're going LancinggGgGg..wahahaha...
heehee.. so exciting... meeting ke rou ..janice and the others there... haha...

:)

i wonder where i'll be going with ashley.. sighs.. what am i gonna wear??

heehee...

she asked my whtether i like her last night.. i was like.. haha.."dont flrit with me.. u got GF hor.." " dun be evvil and make me fall in love with you.. knowing that u have a girlfriend already..."...haha.....

and i met some sicko on icq.. he's a fucker.. firstly. oko.. my nick is zesty.. then hs came up to me and asked... "raunchy??"..like WTH?? then he started asking qns about me.. then it said it was turning him on.. fucker.. i was like " dun give me that crap..." "manners man... im a lady... " ..haha..then he said sorry... "i was just trying my luck"... like FuCK oFF man... he's a dirlty old LAME man.. its fucking 29 yrs old... kaoz... haha.. but a finance manager.. haha...asshole.. watever...

k.. i'll go get ready now.. i have a happy day ahead of me!!! :) yay!!~!~!~!~~!

* i really love u .... but i dont believe in one -sided thingys... i mean..if u loved a person.. u wldnt allow him/her to be in so much pain yar?? i dun wanna be a fool stuck on you.. become a pathetic assclown.. and even feel self- pity for myself.. i cannot let myself be like that... im moving on baby... :) im sorry....i dont want to..but i have to.. i'll have to do do it this time... cause this is taking me nowhere... i hope u understand. =)*

zenna boxed the green apple at 10:34:00 AM

im feeling better today...

slighty..

wil tomorrow be a better day..?

im gonna..no..no..i wanna do it this time. i must.

zenna boxed the green apple at 12:03:00 AM

Wednesday, November 05, 2003

yesterday. the cab i took on my way home frm karen's place knocked a motorcyclist down.

it made me realise the unpredict-ity of when a person might just leave the world.

it happened so fast, the cab braked, hit tip of the motorcycle, and the bike skidded across the road. luckily the motocyclist only suffered minor cuts on his arm and knee..
it was scary.. i hope hes feeling alright now..

all three could have die.. if it was a bigger accident.
the motorcyclist, the cab driver and me.

when i was on the way back home in another cab, i was reflecting 'what if i died just now??' i mean.. who would have expected my cab wld have knocked a motocycle?

what if i died? would u guys have been sad??

i dunno. its so scary.. if i really did die, would u guys know how much i love u guys?? would my family know that i really do love them even though i act like i dont care?

i could have vanish from all ur lives just like that... it scary..thinking about it.

if i died, i wouldnt be able to join u guys at 85 anymore, go Kbox, call u guys assclowns.. i wont be there anymore even if u guys went... its so sad thinking about it..

u guys really have to apprecite the people and thngs u have around now.. cause u'll never know when you'll leave them. i never thought about it until last night... it was a realli good reflection...

can u imagine? if i died... i wldnt even be blogging right now.. my last entry would have been Tue Nov 04, 07:46:19 PM ... and this blog will remain stagnant forever.. its so scary..

babes.. i love you ..every single one of you.. i mean it.. i really apprciate the fact that i have friends like u guys...

i thank God that im alright and bloging at this very moment.

heys.. if i really did die last night, how would you feel?

would you regret not appreciating the fact 'that i was here' ??? would you??

if i really went away, there would be one less person who's out there crying cause of you, one person who really cares about you, one person who loves you.

zenna boxed the green apple at 11:51:00 AM

Closer To Me
>>>Five

Constantly girl you're on my mind,
and girl I think about you all of the time
and even though words are hard to say,
girl I miss you, never thought I'd feel this way.

BRIDGE
If you keep on taking, my heart you'll be breaking so why do you do this to me?
You know how I'm feeling it's you I believe in baby can't you see that I need you?

CHORUS
You know that it's true.
Every time I see your face I miss you baby
You know that it's you.
I want to let you know you're driving me crazy.
I'd do anything to help you to see,
I don't think you understand what you're doing to me.
You know that it's true.
Every now and then I want to call you baby.
You know that it's you.
I say a prayer that you'll come back to me lady.
Oh yeah.
Life ain't anything alone can't you see you're an angel in my eyes,
everyday you're closer to me.

Nobody's there when I call your name,
and nights are cold girl without your flame.
But if I could girl I'd make you see.
That I'm sorry, and that I need you here with me.

Every day reminisce with the past
of a love that we thought would last.
How we used to be when it was you and me.
How did it all disappear so fast.
There are days that I can't forget
there are things that I now regret.
I was there for you when you were there for me, and I was thinkin' we were set.
Every night when I'm laying in my bed
I hear your voice going round in my head, think of all the things I could have done and all those things I could have said.
I really will make it up to you
I know now what I've got to do,
It took time but now I've realised how much I'm missing you

zenna boxed the green apple at 11:12:00 AM

Tuesday, November 04, 2003

oh yah.. u guys need to wait a little while for the song to load.. but its worth the wait.. the song's so sad!!!

today's such a boring day..eveybody's got their exams.. im lonely.. so i went out with my mum this afternoon..

just ran some errands and we were done.. so it was a very boring afternoon...

i was looking for people to go out with me in the evening...but everybody's freaking busy man...

haha..so guess where am i now??? im at karen's place..aGain.. wahahhaha.. she's supposed ot be studying right now.. but that silly girl's msning on the other computer... yeah.. haha..

am supposed to meet dorothy later around 9.. but im lazy..so i'll stay here.. then i'll fetch my my frm the shop so that she'll pay for the cab fare.. haha..

sighs.. tomorrow's another boring day.. i dunno what i should do..actually.. i need to pack my room, cause we're like moving..but..haha.. but just like people who need to be studying.. i'd rather be doing something else than doing IT!! haha.. yeah man..

k babies.. i miss u guys so much.. cant wait to have fun with u guys!!!! sighs..

/// If i AskED, woULD u saY yEs??//// >> this keeps coming back to me...

before i could answer,
it was already over.

zenna boxed the green apple at 7:46:00 PM

this song is soooooo freaking ...sighs....sad..

listen to the song and read the lyrics man... arGH!!

never again
justin timberlake>>>

Would have given up my life for you
Guess it's true what they say about love
It's blind
Girl, you lied straight to my face
Lookin' in my eyes
And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do was apologize
You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me again

Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless, I watched you break this heart of mine
Loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me
And all you had to do was apologize and mean it
But you didn't say you're sorry

I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me...

Wish like Hell I could go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try
But it's too late
Its over now
You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough...

My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me again
Again...
Again, again, again...
Never get to love me...

zenna boxed the green apple at 1:37:00 PM

ur da pretty, popular, blonde 1, ur a little light-
headed but u always hav fun. but u should
probably take a betta look at sum of da guys u
date, or mayb at their age... u r most like
britney spears.

what kinda person r u and what celebrity r u most like? (4 girls)
brought to you by Quizilla

CAN YOU IMAGINE??? IM LIKE BRITNEY SPEARS??

LIKE WTF!!!!!

oh man.. BRITNEY SPEARS?? i was expecting PINK or something.. what the HELL??

really?? u guys think im like britney spears??? fuck man.. haha..

zenna boxed the green apple at 12:09:00 PM

im so totally into chinese songs right now... haha.. really lor.. and all sad ones somemore..

went over to karen's place after looking after the shop...took a cab.. reached there ard 9pm..

yep.. today was a boring day..so boring..

haha.. was in her room looking at pics of she and grace... sighs... grace.. sad case for karen...

man..everybody around me's having problems.. so shity...

newaes.. went to the interchange, met her cousin on the way in the bus...

he's a nice guy!! he's PLU!! haha.. so cute.. had a nice time talkn to him...wahha.. found out stuff about.. *ahem*!! yeah.. interesting!!

haha.. so interesting in karen's family there's like 3 PLU!! karen's bung.. her cousin's ...*ahem*.. and the other .. i dunno.. but stil.. wahaha.. cOoLLL... if only my brother was gaY.. wahahha.. that'll make TWo pple in my family who are PLUs... haha...

they'r askin me to go to 'actor' with them this wed.. dunno whter i shld.. wat am i gonna tell my mum man?? hmm... then i'll smell smoky and 'alcoholic-y'...right??

anyways.. i feeling like moving the ass of mine.. i feel like Lancing.. you guys faster finish exams leh!! then we can.. u know...*nudge*nudge* :)
haha..

again.. im missing you.

zenna boxed the green apple at 2:08:00 AM

Monday, November 03, 2003

Goodbye girl
>>>> david gates

ALL YOUR LIFE YOU'VE WAITED FOR LOVE TO COME AND STAY
AND NOW THAT I HAVE FOUND YOU
YOU MUST NOT SLIP AWAY
I KNOW IT'S HARD BELIEVING THE WORDS YOU'VE HEARD BEFoRE
BUT DARLING ,YOU MUST TRUST THEM JUST ONCE MORE

CAUSE BABY GOOD-BYE DOESN'T MEAN FOREVER
LET ME TELL YOU GOOD-BYE DOESN'T MEAN
WE'LL NEVER BE TOGETHER AGAIN

IF YOU WAKE UP AND I'M NOT THERE
I WON'T BELONG AWAY
CAUSE THE THINGS YOU DO MY GOOD-BYE GIRL
WILL BRING ME BACK TO YOU

I KNOW YOU'VE BEEN TAKEN AFRAID TO HURT AGAIN
YOU FIGHT THE LOVE YOU FEEL FOR ME
INSTEAD OF GIVING ME
BUT I CAN WAIT FOREVER FOR HELPING YOU TO SEE
THAT I WAS MEANT FOR YOU AND YOU FOR ME

SO REMEMBER GOOD-BYE DOESN'T MEAN FOREVER
LET ME TELL YOU GOOD-BYE DOESN'T MEAN
WE'LL NEVER BE TOGETHER AGAIN

THOUGH WE MAY BE SO FAR APART
YOU STILL WILL HAVE MY HEART
SO FORGET YOUR PAST MY GOOD-BYE GIRL
NOW YOU'RE HOME AT LAST

zenna boxed the green apple at 2:11:00 PM

Sunday, November 02, 2003

Whole Again
>>>> atomic kitten

If you see me walking down the street, staring at the sky and dragging my two feet, you just pass me by,
It still makes me cry but you can make me whole again.

And if you see me with another man laughing and joking making the best of this i can, i wont try to put you down , baby i still want you around, 'cos you can
make me whole again.

Looking back on when we first met, i can not escape and i can not forget, baby you are the one you
still turn me on, you can make me whole again.

Time is layin heavy on my heart seems i've got too much of it since we've been apart, my friends
make me smile if only for short while, you can make me whole again.

For now i'll have to wait, but baby if you change your mind don't be too late, 'cos i just can't
go on, its already been too long, but you can make me whole again.

zenna boxed the green apple at 10:39:00 PM